Fragility

I wish I was just a little baby. Nothing to worry about, just have fun. I can cry when I want to & I can laugh just because someone can make funny faces.


But all of that is just not possible. I'm all grown up. I have things to worry about. Lot to thinks about. Life isn't carefree as it used to be backs when I was a little child. Trials come. Trial go. One that I'm going through now is one of the hardest I've encountered so far.


Why? Because it involves feelings. My feelings & the feelings of others. I can bla bla bla & bla to people on how to handle things on hard time, but when it happened to me, I become lost. I lost my sense of judgement, I lost my will, I became weak & I feel like I wanted to just poof out of the world, but I know no matter how hard things are, I still have to face them, I still have to live with them.


I weep, I sulk. Idk. Things like this, it takes time, I'm aware of that. I dont expect it to over right then & there. But I wish so badly, it would end soon. I know I shouldnt be too hard on myself, but the thing is, things fall hard on me. If you were in my shoes, you'll know what I mean. And dont even think what happened to me is what happen to everyone. No. It's not even close.