Fragility

Feeling down at the moment. I don't know why. Wait, I do know why. This is hard. I've been flooding myself with tears these past few nights. It hurts. Really hurts.

I don't know. Maybe it's because I've been keeping myself so strong for so long that I pushed aside, the fragility in me. I've never been this sensitive about things. Little things.

I'm not me right now. I'm just not me. I can feel that and I hate it when I feel like I'm not being me. Because it sucks, really.

The me I am right this very moment is someone I don't know. I never knew that there's 'this me' in me. It's like I'm a stranger to myself now. That's just not right.

Lately I've been locking myself up in my room, which I don't do so often. My tears ran dry because of all this weeping these past few nights.

Anyone wants to volunteer giving me hugs? I could really use a hug right now. I need a hug.

Ps/ I miss you a lot. I wish you were here my sugar dumpling..